Where was I a year ago? What was I doing?
What was I wishing for? And did I achieve what I wished for exactly one year ago?
Well, I didn't do anything great and mindblowing this year, but it was still as eventful and it has been a busy year for me. Let us rewind and revisit my 2012 life again. ;)
1. January- My first step into JC
A year ago, I was still enjoying my holidays, albeit excited for the new JC life ahead.
New friends, new environment yada yada. Oh yeah, and the new uniform as well.
The transition was okay, since the people you see around the school are still the same few.
17. What a stranger that number is to me.
2. March- Adapting to failures
You know how you always tell yourself, "I'm gonna work hard this year" and then end up playing and screwing up your results?
That was practically my story.
Things were not as easy as I thought it would be, and my studying style in secondary school is not suitable for JC. It just doesn't work this way.
I was suffocating. The amount of tutorials you have to do each day, the number of post-lecture tests, lecture tests, class test...
9 out of 10 papers I receive back is a number less than 5 (out of 10).
A total failure. And I was getting used to it already.
No longer was I aiming for As.
I just prayed hard to pass.
3. April, May- Fangirl is born
EXO debuted. 8th April. I was introduced to a group of twelve boys whom I never knew were going to change my life dramatically. It was, and hah, still is, my first time officially fangirling over a boygroup. I created a tumblr account for them, then weibo, then renren, pretty much everything you can think of. Just to get closer to them. Beijing or Seoul.
Gotten more reasons to smile and tear.
4. June-August- CCA
At the beginning of the year, I was struggling with my CCA choices. Ended up with three and among the three, YLEP was the most fulfilling.
I like it when my schedule being packed. It gives me the feeling that I didn't waste my time, and my year was spent well. This could be said for my year as a whole. MPS and peer tutoring sessions on Mondays, and the Communibake mega project, all helped me gained experience in things I never knew and never learned before. Oh and the National Day Dinner as well.
5. Sept-Oct- Promos
I was so pessimistic then. Totally prepared to retain and I told myself and the people around me, I would then choose to move on to poly. It didn't happen in the end. I managed to scrape through without needing to take a single retest. But I somehow hope it happened though.
I chanced upon a page in the magazine a few days ago, and saw this.
This is like, my DREAM COURSE. With this, I can throw away whatever I'm studying now, PCME. Guess fate has its own plans.
6. Nov- When dreams began to be clearer
Maybe as an Aquarius, I tend to dream and fantasize a lot. But as an Aquarius with bloodtype O and born on 7 Feb, I am the one who is creative, idealistic, but yet pragmatic at the same time. (Or so the books and internet say.)
I think I know where to go now. (see my older post about "What do you want to be")
Yeah, this holiday I've been spending quite some time (no, just an hour and a half actually) reading my horoscope. They are kinda true.
Despite your amiability you are also quite a private individual who occasionally prefers solitude and chooses his or her friends carefully. You have firm opinions, especially concerning equality and your persuasive language and communication skills help you express them tastefully. Water bearer's with a February the seventh birthday are intellectually innovative, your constant stream of ideas and impulses can be both captivating and annoying.
Being born on the 7th of February ordinarily means that you feel an overwhelming need to make your imaginative ideas happen and your theories be heard. This desire to express your individuality is usually interwoven into many of your dreams for the future and it helps you form the basis of any personal goals. You are fairly ambitious and will pursue strongly anything that you have great belief in so it is one of your aims to do something very meaningful with your life.True, huh? I wanted to quote more but that will only make this post even longer. But you get the gist.
7. SMTOWN.
This was it. Maybe the highlight in my entire life..
This concert solidified my love for KPOP, and SMTOWN.
Experienced what it is to be a real fangirl.
Standing outside the hotel for 5 hours, watching rehearsals at night by the bay, waking up early in the morning to queue for merchandise, screaming the names of my biases in the rain, waving my lightstick, smiling in the midst of 24thousand fans.
My life is complete. Well, not.
I have a new goal now. :)
8. Dec- Full time KPOPPER
Spent most of the time checking twitter updates, and blogging about them. Was so into the fangirling mood that I even went for G.NA's fanmeet.
Created a twitter fandom account, just to entertain myself and to stop annoying the nonkpoppers on my first acc's tlist.
I was pretty much in the embracement of KPOP. Everyday.
As you can see, 2012 was full of KPOP in my life. It made my life colourful.
Brought me hope and laughter, and tears.
As for this blog, it sure has shifted its focus to more KPOP related stuff. And if you guys have noticed, I added a SCM player to the blog! It's at the bottom of the page, and what I like about it is its simple design, and it only takes up a small part of the blog, and the best part about it is that, even if you move away from this page to view my previous posts, it won't restart itself. :D
Isn't my choice of music great? (Okay, don't want to be judged, pretend I didn't ask that.)
I've changed my blogskin also, after a very long time. And changed my header twice!
And this, was what I've written on the last day of 2011, titled, well, "the last day of 2011".
Guess what? I think my command of the English language has deteriorated. D:
Was rummaging through my blog drafts and found this short quote (by me ;P) that I was intending to post but didn't.
If you work hard enough,
it is possible for time to stop for you.
-zachela
Well actually, I posted two blogposts on the last day of 2011. The other one is this.
So I am going to end off this post on 2012, with this.
Be ladies, but we stay girls.
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Happy last day of 2012. :) |
And the lyrics will be:
"I was looking through my idol's photobook, I see the picture of that artiste who was once the leader of hallyu wave. It's been a while.
When lunch time came, I sat by my computer. As I watched you, who seemed so far away from me like a star. It was really nice. I was a fan so idols seemed so high up there. It was so hard to say a word to him. Though we were countries apart.
But my heart rushed by just seeing his name.
Is he married now? Does he even know me?
Is he still living his dreams like before?
Did he get taller than before?
I want him to remain as a good memory."
Though I don't want this to happen, it will, one day.
However, getting married doesn't mean I will stop being a fan.
They will forever hold a special place in my heart. :')
EXO 啊 你们知不知道…… ㅠㅠ