The end; the beginning

It is finally the end of A Level examinations, and the start of everything.

No more Physics theories, Math formulas, Economic structures and Chemistry diagrams for the rest of my life~
From now on, I'm gonna live, for myself.

These few years have been tiring, and albeit meaningless.
I mean, I love reading some of the notes that were given to me tbh, but the thought of reading it because I have to memorise them and use them in tests just turns me off.
Sometimes, being a student makes me forget that I'm a human, too.


So, remember my celebratory plans?
Here it is!

Rushed off immediately after the chief examiner (?) released us and ran from the school to the MRT station with my friend. Had my deer plushie with me~

FREEDOM!

It still feels pretty much surreal to me... the fact that I have graduated from this system.
This tiring routine of studying (for the sake of A Level), staying up late (for the sake of A Level), getting stressed up (for the sake of A Level), being restricted and not able to do what I want (for the sake of A Level).
Gone.

18 years. Okay, maybe that's exaggerated. Technically, for 6+4+2 years *inserts "OMG IT'S 12!" joke*, I have been told and instructed and forced and pressurized by the society to prepare for this major exam. And then suddenly, it's..
Gone.

And all of a sudden, I'm lost.

Previously, I kept telling myself that "I will do this after A Level" and "How I wish I can do this but A Level", and now, the chance is given to me. Yet.. I'm too overwhelmed by it.

There's this uncertainty in the future, which I really don't like.

What am I going to do now? What am I going to do tomorrow? The day after. Next week. Next month.

The thought of my future scares me.
I don't want to grow up. I don't want to grow old.
I don't want to die.
And when I die, I don't want to regret a single thing.

Here's the plan.
1. $
First on the list: Make as much money as possible.
After all, you can't deny that money is the solution to most problems.

Found a temporary job for four days, 28NOV-1DEC at SITEX '13.
Yup, a day after my freedom. Hardcore much, huh?
It was a cashiering job for ~12hours, including preparation and packing up time.
It drains pretty much all your energy, and it was the first time I felt physically tired and sleep deprived. Had to eat my dinner at 12AM-ish for the past four days. And I fell asleep twice in front of the computer after that.

Dinner at 12AM #yolo

But I have to say that it taught me quite a lot, dealing with customers of all kinds, interacting with your boss and coworkers, meeting your primary and JC schoolmates at work :/ , coping with all sorts of impromptu situations...
SPEAKING OF WHICH, I HAD A FEW HILARIOUS MOMENTS AHAHAHAH
Some customers practically scrawled their names and one of them was "RIZAL" and being a responsible and dutiful cashier, I went on to confirm with him, asking, "Is your name R-1-2-A-2?"
Okay, I admit that it was a mistake on my part for not being able to read names. But it's so funny I can't stop laughing whenever I recall the incident. (Talking about my mistake, not the customer's name/handwriting kay)

Currently working on an application for another job, which I will reveal if I get it.
Meanwhile, I'm on the constant lookout for more jobs to earn as much as possible to fund my other plans.

2. December to August... Or more.
The expected path after A-level would be university entrance, and if my results are good enough, I will most probably be going to NUS and applying for FASS- Communications and New Media. And the new term will begin in August.

However, I am considering an alternative option which is taking a gap year.
During that one year (or even two), I want to study Korean at Yonsei KLI, explore Korea, and experience living overseas alone and doing things on my own.

At the same time, like what I have said before, do random things that have been on my to do list for quite some time. Learn how to play the guitar, dance, and maybe, photography.
Because life isn't all about studying and living up to society's expectations.
You own your life.

3. Schedule
2-8DEC: FREE (i.e. plan, pack, shop)
9DEC: PROM
13DEC: Attend a wedding dinner (FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD)
14-15DEC: Camp


That's about all. This is just a post to wrap up my As life. And a post to welcome my future.
All is well. :)

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time

Know there was something that, and something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets,
Leave something to remember, so they won't forget

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I've done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here

I want to say I lived each day, until I die
And know that I meant something in, somebody's life
The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave
That I made a difference, and this world will see