cant stand it anymore

i cant stop my tears from falling.
so many things
that are in my mind
but i just cant say it out
because i know you wont understand.
what can i do

i feel so yuanwang.
i pity myself. i pity my fate.

i wanted to be happy
i wanted to be me
i wanted to continue the happiness from graces
i was still in the happy mode when i reached home.
but everything changed. once you opened that stupid mouth of yours.
I TELL YOU, YOUR STUPID MOUTH IS A PERFECT COMBINATION WITH THAT SMALLER-THAN-A-PEA SIZED BRAIN OF YOURS.
IT KILLS.

SERIOUSLY
I LOVE YOU
BUT I
CANNOT STAND YOU
ANY LONGER.

I WANT TO KILL YOU
OR I WANT TO KILL MYSELF
I'M FEELING REALLY REALLY DEPRESSED AND HORRIBLE RIGHT NOW


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update~:
okay, sorry for saying all these.
i shouldnt have said something so stupid and evil
but still, i am not in the wrong.
just apologising for saying the killing part.
oops.
"the biggest virtue that one has, is to forgive"