as a kpop fan, and a sone

i've learnt to become stronger.

last day of 2011

i just chanced upon my calendar/diary book for 2011
and flipped to the first page where they wanted me to write down my goals for the year.
'msg < 1.5' 'all As' +alotof other stuff but, i'm only mentioning these two because well,
it' unbelievable.
because,
i managed to hit the target, i reached my goal.

i remember when i was writing that, it was just a form of motivation, to tell myself to do better, to work harder. never did i imagine that i will actually score that well.
i am really happy, and surprised. at what i've written, and what i had achieved.
i am surprised at myself, at my accomplishment.
i felt a sense of satisfaction.

luck? fate?
i don't know.

but i am going to write one for 2012 too. :)
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last day of 2011, looking back, i realised i matured a lot this year.
still as emotional, and a bigger SONE.
i went to the first concert in my life,
i flunked two science papers for blocktest1 and 2,
i did surprisingly well for endofyear report,
i know more about the world, and i care more, too.

what am i going to do today?
how am i going to spend the last day..

nothing unique, nothing surprising, nothing sentimental.
just going to pack my room, and complete what has been on my todolist for a long time.

and tomorrow, i'm going to start drafting for a new year.:)

sleeping late; wedding

know and heard many times that sleeping late is not good for your skin, body, face and brain.
yeah, sounds like a super bad combo.

but i realised that i am very very efficient at night, so
who cares i'm going to sleep late.
just take it that i'm living on the other side of the earth. :)
then it will not be counted as sleeping late anymore!~

hehe, besides being efficient, i feel happier, and
more "awake", as if i am more myself...
(sounds scary? :P )

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anyway, attended a wedding dinner tonight/last night.
while watching the photo montage,
i thought about it for a while.
what if it was me?
a few years down the road, i may/will be walking down this path too.
i might/will get married too, finding myself a husband,
and walking into the next phase of my life.

and i was afraid.

time flies, and i know it.
it will take a blink of an eye for this to happen.
too fast. too soon.
i am not ready.
i want to be forever 16.

as much as i find my family members annoying (SOMETIMES)
i must admit that i still depend on them.
i love them so much i dont want to leave them.
i dont want them to be away from my life.

haha, it may be still too early for me to talk/think about this,
but the thought of it simply scares me.

我不想長大

busy...?

You know the story about how you leave today's tasks for tomorrow, and everything piles up and you have to work harder?
Result of being lazy and you have to pay for it the next day.

I know the moral of the story,
yet I didn't care.
GUILT.
again.

I will do it today! (I hope)


SCHEDULES AHEAD:
tonight[thurs]- SBS GAYO DAEJUN!

[fri]- wedding dinner
KBS GAYO DAEJUN!
[sat] MBC GAYO DAEJUN!
[mon]- class
[tues]-dance prac
[thurs]- batch outing
[fri]- dance prac


HWAITING!

end of the year

It is already the 27th.
I need to be more efficient and productive.


I really dont feel like associating myself with the number '17'.
It looks dangerous, and old.

Lucky to have two more weeks of holidays before the first day of stepping-into-jc starts
and too bad for those who have to start school next week!
Grab hold of the last few days of freedom. Savour it.
Finish whatever dramas you're watching, whatever fanfics you are reading,
and then make a whole new list of what to do.
To prepare for the new year.
And, also make a record of things you have done this year.
Things you are satisfied with yourself accomplishing,
and things that you are not so satisfied with.

Wake up.
Find your true self, and meaning of life. The meaning of living on this earth.
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2012.
Some people say that it will be the end of the world.
I do not believe in that,
but I think that it will mark a major change,
a huge twist in the history of mankind.
Haha, most probably bad things of course.
We've already had signs, since the occurrence of SARS, bird flu, H1N1, indonesia tsunami, Japan China ++ earthquakes,
and lately, the death of KimJongil.
Take that and pair it with a combo of global warming, poverty, pollution, corruption, wars.
These give a hint to what to expect in 2012.
Yeah, it sure is bad.

But things can CHANGE.
What if people stop polluting, stop corrupting, stop the greed, and the successor of NK finally sees what's really best for its people?
Well, these depends on the few big people who plays a part in all these,
and I don't think they will be reading this, or suddenly decide to change for good,
but commoners (:P) like us,
CAN do something.

Start by being a nice person.
A good child to your parents,
A good friend to your friends,
a good student to your teachers,
a good citizen to your country. (YEAH STOP COMPLAINING SINGAPOREANS!)

Spread these good acts around,
I believe it will create some kind of good, positive energy.
Reduce the number of national disasters,
or simply, influencing the people around you to do so,
spreading love, and happiness.
An act of kindness goes A LONG WAY.

:)

HAPPY TODAY!

every day is a happy day.

guilty

Decided to make a list of things which will make me feel guilty.

-when spending money during shopping
-when my mother apologises
-trying not to be bias
-eating too much
-lying
-trying not to betray something/someone

Guilt.
How many of the big evil bullies out there who harms the earth
or start a war
feel that?




HEHE ANW,
THE NOOSE TONIGHT!
BRAND NEW SEASON!

i'm a lazy girl

looking at my previous blogpost,
i noticed again how fast time passes.

it was written more than 10 days ago,
but it felt like it was just a few days.

i did nothing much again.
school is starting in less than a month's time.
am i ready?
i want to experience a new school life,
use my new bag and pencil case :P,
yet at the same time,
i dont want the holiday to end.

i want to be able to eat whatever i want anytime
do whatever i want anytime
sleep whenever i want
play whenever i want.

anw, holiday's the mood for shopping.
i have loads of things on my shoppinglist,
and i enjoy the feeling i get from shopping.
however, it comes with a price.
the fact that you have to pay,
makes me feel even more guilty. :(

hmm

ANW CHRISTMAS IS COMING!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

remember the spirit of giving,
and, chiong at the xmas sales!!

girls; korean pop songs meanings

i have to say that
girls just love dolling themselves up.

:)
because i love to do that too!
from painting of your nails,
to experimenting hairstyles,
to matching your clothes and shoes, and bags (girls seriously have a thing for shoes and bags)
to putting on makeup.

i dont mind spending hours doing them.
because i'm a girl.

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besides kpop songs being catchy/having beautiful melodies,
the meaning of the song/lyrics are really, well, meaningful!
i mean, for non-koreans like me, i can only listen to the tune, watch the expressions of the singers and the dance moves, with occassional appearance of familiar words from my limited korean vocabulary, to guess and interpret the meaning of the songs.
of course, this is before googling the eng translations of the songs online.

but one amazing thing is that,
watching (eng)subbed musicvideos on youtube
not just only helped me understand the meaning of the song,
it made everything fall in place,
how the meaning fits how it sounds in korean,
how the meaning fits the dance moves, the mv setting, the tune etc.

it makes the songs 100times better!
the boys, bubble pop, so hot etc

without knowing the translations,
people may think that "bring the boys out" means girls generation is so hot that they can bring the boys out.
but no.
after watching the engsubbed mvversion,
you will then know that it is actually about giving encouragement for the guys out there who have no confidence in themselves, or who are tired with life.
they want them to stand up for themselves.
it is a song about bringing the confidence of the boys out.
and then, everything begins to fit.

my blog

realised that it is not very informative.

and my language is horrible, so
I SHALL TRY AND IMPROVE

in both language and content.

haha, training for school, and upgrading myself. 2 in 1!

i am easily persuaded

it is either xiaxue is a very good talker, or i'm easily persuaded.
but i think it's a bit of both.

i'm sure she is a very good talker, she has her points, and she's got the skills to make them decent.

and, i am currently 16, going 17,
at that very stage whereby i am attracted to many stuff out there,
i'm also listening more, watching and visiting more videos,
so i'm getting exposed to even more things.
and i want them. everything looks so pretty, i wanna try them too!
be it products, lifestyle, way of doing things, etc
i'm influenced!

but that being said, it doesnt mean that i am easily persuaded to...
yes, i can be swayed into buying a certain product,
but definitely not ideas/opinions, like political sides or how certain thing/group/person is/are bad. things like that.
so, i am easily persuaded, only when it is about products, things that i can see, cosmetics electronics food stationery etc.
and when it comes to some kind of idealogy, you definitely cannot talk me into believing something. unlike my mom.:P


anyway, I WANT MONEH. :)
i know people will start saying, oh you know money isn't everything. money is not important. there are things that you cannot buy with money.
yaya i understand that,
while i treasure the things that i cant buy with money,
i need money to buy the things that i cant get without money.
yeah.. some kind of rap going on in here
but you know what i'm trying to say.

:)

plans!

to help myself, into becoming a more efficient person,
plans.


TMR.
-have to wake up early. target: 7am
-dance prac (and i seriously hope that place will be empty!)
-home, start on at least 2 things on my list
-end all activities by 7pm, to enjoy family time downstairs with.. my family!
(dinner, shows etc)
-by 930, read a book
i've bought quite a number in taiwan, cleared three already, currently reading the book thief偷書賊, in chinese
-sleep latest by1120pm


I HOPE ALL GOES WELL!

upnext:
thurs, fri
sat: movie and shopping with mel

procrastination

i hope i spelt that correctly.


so, coming towards the end of december.
i still cant take in the fact that it is holiday already.
and for such a long time like this.
because i've been procrastinating, and
not efficient.

tons of things on my list.
i've completed some,
but not much, and not fast.

still sleeping late and waking up late,
spending my time in front of the com.
so much that i've expected for this holidays!

disappointed.

so many things, just so many.
I NEED TO JIAYOU.
hwaiting!

tired;fat

back from the wide game today.
REALLY TIRED.
having muscleache now.

and just finished cramming myself with food.
getting fatter. =.=

and anyway, just read some of xiaxue's notes on elections
and i really agree with what she's saying.
once again, she has proven that she's not a bimbo.
she's someone with logical and sound mind.
good reasoning, and definitely a good speaker.

people should see the truth.

haiz

GOOSE.
i hate it when i feel like that.

girls' generation

After listening to into the new world, honey (perfect for you)
once again,
I cried.


Because of the beautifulness i find, in the names
'Girls' Generation'; and
'SONE'.

Girls' Generation, in the hearts of many sones, is no longer just a name.
It means further more than that.
It is the beginning,
the friendship, it is the every single detail about nine girls who are great in their own ways.
No matter how many songs they've sang and produced, there will always be one song that will remain in my heart, forever- Into the New World.
Like what some of the top comments in youtube videos now say,
it is the 'beginning of the legend', and
'this will forever be their most beautiful song'.
Because it means a lot to them, and us.
It marks the beginning of Girls' Generation. Like what the girls have said, it is the era of the girls, strong and pure.
It represents their debut, the first result of their years of hardwork to be showcased to the world, their sweat and tears, their dreams and passion..since young.
Singing it again in the future, reminds them and us of their rookie days, the feeling of being nervous, the Girls' Generation who just stepped on to the performance stage, who entered the lifes of the audience and fans. It reminds everyone of their love for performing on stage, the reason why they are here.

SONE,
the idea came from a song in their first album, sowon. (now called honey/perfect for you)
Which actually means wish in korean.
Has such deep meaning in the name
of the fans, of the pink oceans and seas around the world.
A group of people who dedicated their love and heart for these nine girls,
who saw their hardwork, their passion,
who loved them for everything they did,
who will support them no matter what.

Our girls have come so far.
Four years, still strong.
More and more people are noticing them,
more people of different race, nationality, and cultures
are getting soshified.
This, will never end.
They are legend.
They are nine girls who changed history, and impacted lives.

지금은 앞으로도 영원히 소녀시대
Right now, the future, forever, Sonyeoshidae.

If you're still Girls' Generation in the next lifetime, I will still be, a SONE.

the feeling of

feeling guilty.




anw i got a YELLOW LOLLIPOP CUSHION!~

still,

mama 2011 is over.
happy, and really happy about the results.

SJ- Best Male Group
SNSD- Best Female Group
SJ- Best Album of the Year
SNSD- Best Artist of the Year

:) SUPERGENERATION jjang!
watched fancams, and i'm really proud of the bond shared between them,
how they stood up for each other when the other got the award, proudly, happily, and smiling.
good friends who went through training hardship,
siblings who spent childhood times together.

things are still coming up. life is still eventful.

but i'm still lazy as usual, not efficient in the holidays,
getting fat, waking up late, not completing my tasks.
disappointed in myself.

went shopping today with my mum.
bought a few stuff. things on my list.
but i'm just leaving them there lying on my desktop.
























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