FAQ

The answers to some of the frequently asked questions on my ask.fm.
This list will be updated from time to time, so that I won't need to keep repeating my answers. :)

1. How old are you?/Birthday?
'95 liner. 7 Feb.

2. Where are you from?/ Are you a Chinese?
Singapore. Singaporean Chinese.

3. What languages do you speak?
English, Mandarin Chinese. I understand basic Hainanese and Korean.

4. Stan of?/ SNSD or EXO?/ Any other favourite groups?
Girls' Generation and EXO. EQUALLY.
I respect BoA and DBSK as seniors,SJ's variety skills, SHINee's live stages, f(x)'s concept. (SMTOWN stan here yoz)

5. Bias? (GG and EXO)
Taeyeon. Biasless (Practically gave up trying to find a bias after ~2 years, admit my OT12 fate)

6. Where do you get your updates from?
Mainly Weibo. The two main kor-chi translators (for EXO) in the cfandom.

7. Why aren't you doing followbacks?
http://ask.fm/exonyeoshidae/answer/105077646916

Currently, these are the few FAQs that I can think of. c:
Merry Christmas!!

If you have any other questions, feel free to ask them on my askfm, lest I miss your mentions on Twitter. :)
http://ask.fm/exonyeoshidae

Reply1994 E12; Miracles

This episode touched on the collapse of the Sampoong Departmental Store, which happened in 1995. Netizens were originally speculating if this incident was going to be covered in Reply 1994 or not, and it turns out that they did~ And it was brilliantly filmed, as it managed to allow the viewers to experience and understand how family and friends, of both the victims and the people who were supposed to be there, felt.
The anxiousness for some, and the others, the sigh of relief.

Of course, I am not a Korean myself, but this disaster (South Korea's largest peacetime disaster in history)
reminded me of the Nicoll Highway collapse which happened in Singapore, 2004. I was only 9, and my memory of it was just that, it was greatly covered in the news, and that it was something scary, and unbelievable.
And I went back to my toys after switching off the television.

This episode had me thinking. It wasn't just a scary moment for the people who were trapped and injured, but for the people they know as well.

That uncertainty, of whether your family members/friends who happened to be there, at that moment, are safe or not.

That moment, when all the pagers started beeping... The director captured the foreboding atmosphere really well.

That scene, of Haitai, Samcheonpo and the SeoTaiji fangirl paging Joon and Jung, and leaving their voice messages...

And the tears of relief, when Najung saw Joon at the traffic light.

Some people say that there is a miracle, and others say that there isn't.
But in the end, at that desperate moment, anyone prays for a miracle
and waits for one.
That's why a miracle should exist.
So that a slight hope, at least, can be given at every desperate moment. A miracle must exist.

Unfortunately, this stroke of luck doesn't apply for all. This is when the notable, exceptional scriptwriting of the Reply series come into play.

But miracles are miracles because they are not common.
Rather than luck that you didn't anticipate, there's much more misfortune that you couldn't even think of in this world.
Life, to live believing in only miracles, is cold and harsh.

 

Another trademark of the Reply series, is how well the various scenes manage to link at the end of each episode. Sometimes, with a shocking revelation. Something that makes the viewers go "Ah! So that's why they added this scene at the beginning!" How everything ties up in the end.. 

In the end, miracles are a matter of probability
Miracles exist only for one person.
For the remaining 9999 people, it's merely nonsense.
Life is, in all and overwhelming probability, cruel.

Anyway, I saw a post on Weibo, discussing the possible candidates for Najung's husband. And I found a point of hers quite interesting: the biggest spoiler, is Najung's character.
But TEAM CHILBONG FTW~

A quote, again, to conclude this post. 

Still, still, we need miracles.
Rather than despair that has zero percent probability, a possibility that could happen once in 100000.
A sliver of possibility is still better.
Only then do we have hope.

[TRANS] [ENG/PINYIN/CHI] EXO- The First Snow （初雪）

第一场雪下起的午后
That afternoon, when the first snow fell
想和你　分享感动　却只沉默对着话筒
Wanted to share my emotions with you, but I could only face my phone with silence
转眼一年又悄然走过
In the blink of an eye, a year has crept passed once again
对你的留恋　占满心中
My pining for you took hold of my entire heart
“是寂寞”喃喃对自己说
"It's loneliness", I murmured to myself

若时光能倒流　回到那一年　相恋的感觉
If I could turn back time, I'd return to that year, when we were in love
若重回那初衷　一切是否会变得不同
If I could gain back my original intention, will everything end up differently?
Ｙｅａｈ　痴人说梦的念头　但也许能够
Yeah, thoughts likened to a foolish man's dream, but who knows it might be possible

看着你的泪　仿佛责备我
Looking at your tears, as if they are reprimanding me
傻得连挽留　都无话可说
For being too silly to be speechless when I am supposed to hold you back
你好吗　Ｍｅｒｒｙ　ｍｅｒｒｙ　Ｃｈｒｉｓｔｍａｓ　祝你有更好的生活
How are you, merry merry Christmas, hope you will live a better life
看白雪飘落　在心的缺口
Looking at the falling white snow, on my chipped heart
能不能淹没　过去的所有伤痛
Is it possible to submerge all my pain of the past

用歉意目送你的离去
Sending you off with apologetic looks in my eyes
留下我一遍一遍后悔的Ｃｈｒｉｓｔｍａｓ
I'm only left with repeatedly regretful Christmases

回忆像街灯　洒满街头　
Memories, like streetlight, filling the streets completely
别人的幸福　闪烁在我的眼中
Other people's happiness, are shining in my eyes
以为你就是我的呼吸　永远给我爱的勇气
I thought you were every breath that I take, always giving me courage of love
傻得让你走　我真的对不起
I was too silly to let you go, I'm really sorry
多平凡的道理　总是要失去　才懂得珍惜
What a simple theory; always realizing the importance of treasuring only after we lose something
无法原谅自己　已来不及　再回到过去
I can't forgive myself, it is already too late, for us to return to the past
请相信　我能为你　改变的决心
Please believe, the determination that I have to change for your sake.

看着你的泪　仿佛责备我
Looking at your tears, as if they are reprimanding me
傻得连挽留　都无话可说
For being too silly to be speechless when I am supposed to hold you back
你好吗　Ｍｅｒｒｙ　ｍｅｒｒｙ　Ｃｈｒｉｓｔｍａｓ　祝你有更好的生活
How are you? Merry merry Christmas, hope you will live a better life
看白雪飘落　在心的缺口
Looking at the falling white snow, on my chipped heart
能不能淹没　过去的所有伤痛
Is it possible to submerge all my pain of the past

脸上冻结　是雪还是泪
The frost on my face, is it the snow, or my tears
随着你　愈来愈远的这次Ｃｈｒｉｓｔｍａｓ
This Christmas, where I'm getting farther and farther away from you

祈祷着奇迹　能再度降临
Praying that miracles can arrive once again
在我的眼里　才会想你就会流泪
My eyes tear whenever I think of you
Ｔｅａｒｓ　ａｒｅ　ｆａｌｌｉｎｇ，　ｆａｌｌｉｎｇ，　ｆａｌｌｉｎｇ
就算只有一天　用我仅有一切交换回到你身边
Even if it's just for a day, I will exchange everything that I have to return to your side
点燃生命火焰　直到终于为你熄灭　Ｇｉｒｌ
Igniting the flame of life, until I finally extinguish, for you, girl

看着你的泪　仿佛责备我
Looking at your tears, as if they are reprimanding me
傻得连挽留　都无话可说
For being too silly to be speechless when I am supposed to hold you back
你好吗　Ｍｅｒｒｙ　ｍｅｒｒｙ　Ｃｈｒｉｓｔｍａｓ　祝你有更好的生活
How are you? Merry merry Christmas, hope you will live a better life
看白雪飘落　在心的缺口
Looking at the falling white snow, on my chipped heart
能不能淹没　过去的所有伤痛
Is it possible to submerge all my pain of the past

用歉意目送你的离去
Sending you off with apologetic looks in my eyes
留下我一遍一遍后悔
I'm only left with repeated regrets

看着你的泪　仿佛责备我
Looking at your tears, as if to reprimand me
傻得连挽留　都无话可说
For being too silly to be speechless when I am supposed to hold you back
你好吗　Ｍｅｒｒｙ　ｍｅｒｒｙ　Ｃｈｒｉｓｔｍａｓ　祝你有更好的生活
How are you, merry merry Christmas, hope you will live a better life
看白雪飘落　在心的缺口
Looking at the falling white snow, on my chipped heart
能不能淹没　过去的所有伤痛
Is it possible to submerge all my pain of the past

脸上冻结　是雪还是泪
The frost on my face, is it the snow, or my tears
随着你　愈来愈远的这次Ｃｈｒｉｓｔｍａｓ
This Christmas, where I'm getting farther and farther away from you
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cr: @exonyeoshidae
pinyin will be up soon, sorry for any mistranslations
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UPDATED (PINYIN):
diyichang xue xiaqi de wuhou
xiang heni fenxiang gandong que zhi chenmo duizhe huatong
zhuanyan yinian you qiaoran zouguo duini de liulian zhanman xinzhong
"shi jimo" nannan dui ziji shuo

ruo shiguang neng daoliu huidao nayinian xianglian de ganjue
ruo chonghui na chuzhong yiqie shifou hui biande butong
yeah chiren shuomeng de niantou dan yexu nenggou

kanzhe nide lei fangfu zebei wo
shade lian wanliu dou wuhuakeshuo
nihaoma merry merry christmas zhuni you genghao de shenghuo
kan baixue piaoluo zai xin de quekou
nengbuneng yanmo guoqu de suoyou shangtong

yong qianyi musong ni de liqu
liuxia wo yibian yibian houhui de christmas

huiyi xiang jiedeng saman jietou
bieren de xingfu shanshuo zai wode yanzhong
yiwei ni jiushi wode huxi yongyuan geiwo ai de yongqi
shade rangni zou wo zhende duibuqi
duo pingfan de daoli zongshi yao shiqu cai dongde zhenxi
wufa yuanliang ziji yi laibuji zai huidao guoqu
qing xiangxin wo neng weini gaibian de juexin

kanzhe nide lei fangfu zebei wo
shade lian wanliu dou wuhuakeshuo
nihaoma merry merry christmas zhuni you genghao de shenghuo
kan baixue piaoluo zai xin de quekou
nengbuneng yanmo guoqu de suoyou shangtong

lianshang bingjie shi xue haishi lei
suizheni yulaiyu yuan de zheci christmas

qidao zhe qiji neng zaidu jianglin
zai wode yanli cai hui xiangni jiuhui liulei
tears are falling falling falling
jiusuan zhiyou yitian yongwo jinyou yiqie jiaohuan huidao ni shenbian
dianran shengming huoyan shidao zhongyu weini ximie girl

kanzhe nide lei fangfu zebei wo
shade lian wanliu dou wuhuakeshuo
nihaoma merry merry christmas zhuni you genghao de shenghuo
kan baixue piaoluo zai xin de quekou
nengbuneng yanmo guoqu de suoyou shangtong

yong qianyi musong ni de liqu
liuxia wo yibian yibian houhui
kanzhe nide lei fangfu zebei wo
shade lian wanliu dou wuhuakeshuo
nihaoma merry merry christmas zhuni you genghao de shenghuo
kan baixue piaoluo zai xin de quekou
nengbuneng yanmo guoqu de suoyou shangtong

lianshang bingjie shi xue haishi lei
suizheni yulaiyu yuan de zheci christmas

[TRANS] [ENG/PINYIN/CHI] EXO- The Star (星)

星雨飞往地下 像是计划
Shooting stars reach for the ground, as if it was preplanned
独自穿过森林和稀薄的气压
Piercing through forests and the thin layer of air pressure on its own
无聊沉寂的夜
On this boring and lonely night
没什么可以写下 或刻在壁画
I'm left with nothing worth writing down, nor carved in wall murals

我仰望着星空
I look up at the starry sky
摘下最亮的一颗感受幸福
Plucking the brightest star, feeling the happiness
神话里的驯鹿
The reindeer that belongs in mythologies
每一张一张 碎片拼图
Piece by piece, I solve the puzzle
不能把我禁锢
Nothing can ever imprison me

Girl你像耀眼的星河
Girl you are like the blinding milky way
Just blow my mind (是照亮着我的guiding star)
Just blow my mind (You are the guiding star that is illuminating me)
Oh girl 可望再和你更靠近一点
Oh girl, I long to be closer to you
再多点 (分享一点温柔星光)
A little bit more (Sharing the gentle starlight)

所有向往的目光都集中在她的身上 Ladies & Gentlemen
All eyes on her, ladies and gentlemen
所有向往的目光是为你散发的光亮 Ladies & Gentlemen
All eyes on you, it's your radiating light, ladies and gentlemen

Tell me about it shining star

Midnight 在等我的你 倾听最动听的耳语
Midnight, I'm waiting for you, listening to the beautiful-sounding whispers
这迷幻的星河 像你唱的歌 (That's right)
This mesmerizing galaxy, are like the songs that you sing
快被痛苦燃烧的世界 赤焰直接撕裂了视线
The world that is almost set on fire by sufferings, with red flames blurring their sight
却还有力量灌注着身体 可以一步一步让我飞向你
Yet there's still energy flowing in my body, allowing me to fly towards you, step by step

太久太久 还要走多久
Too long, too long, how much longer will it take
看得见却抓不到的手
Your hands that are unreachable
给你吧全部献上
I give you my all
太久太久 还要等多久
Too long, too long, how much longer must I wait for
闭上眼做 关于你的梦 oh no 不要醒来
Close my eyes, dreaming about you, oh no, don't wanna wake up

所有向往的目光都集中在她的身上 Ladies & Gentlemen
All eyes on her, ladies and gentlemen
所有向往的目光是为你散发的光亮 Ladies & Gentlemen
All eyes on you, it's your radiating light, ladies and gentlemen

Tell me about it shining star

Every night you know you always look so fine
You just like a rock star you know how fine you are yeah
Imma take you to a secret place
Drop the shapes and crank the bass, uh hey girl, you know
How to play
(Come to play with me)

太久太久 还要走多久
Too long, too long, how much longer will it take
看得见却抓不到的手
Your hands that are unreachable
Midnight 在等我的你 倾听最动听的耳语
Midnight, I'm waiting for you, listening to the beautiful-sounding whispers
太久太久 还要等多久
Too long, too long, how much longer must I wait for
闭上眼做 关于你的梦
Close my eyes, dreaming about you
银河的光芒下
Under the glow of the milky way

所有向往的目光都集中在她的身上 Ladies & Gentlemen
All eyes on her, ladies and gentlemen
所有向往的目光是为你散发的光亮 Ladies & Gentlemen
All eyes on you, it's your radiating light, ladies and gentlemen

寒冷的夜晚no?温暖的夜晚yes!
Chilling night, no? Heartwarming night, yes!
世界存在只为注视着你
The world exist to focus their eyes on you
Ladies & Gentlemen
如果可以 融入你的光芒 yes
If possible, melting into your light, yes
我存在也只为注视着你
I exist to focus my eyes on you, too
Ladies & Gentlemen

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cr: @exonyeoshidae
pinyin will be uploaded later. Sorry for any mistranslations.
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UPDATED (PINYIN):
 xingyu feiwang dixia xiangshi jihua
duzi chuanguo senlin he xibo de qiya
wuliao chenji de ye
meishenme keyi xiexia huo kezai bihua

wo yangwang zhe xingkong
zhaixia zuiliang de yike ganshou xingfu
shenhua li de xunlu
meiyizhang yizhang suipian pintu
buneng bawo jingu

girl nixiang yaoyan de xinghe
just blow my mind (shi zhaoliang zhe wo de guiding star)
oh girl kewang zaihe ni geng kaojin yidian
zai duodian (fenxiang yidian wenrou xingguang)

suoyou xiangwang de muguang dou jizhong zai tade shenshang ladies and gentlemen
suoyou xiangwang de muguang shi weini sanfa de guangliang ladies and gentlemen
tell me about it shining star

midnight zai dengwo de ni qingting zui dongting de eryu
zhe mihuan de xinghe xiangni chang de ge (that's right)
kuaibei tongku ranshao de shijie chiyan zhijie silie le shixian
que haiyou liliang guanzhu zhe shenti keyi yibu yibu rangwo fei xiang ni

taijiu taijiu haiyao zou duojiu
kandejian que zhua budao de shou
geini ba quanbu xianshang
taijiu taijiu haiyao deng duojiu
bishangyan zuo guanyu ni de meng oh no buyao xinglai

suoyou xiangwang de muguang dou jizhong zai tade shenshang ladies and gentlemen
suoyou xiangwang de muguang shi weini sanfa de guangliang ladies and gentlemen
tell me about it shining star

Every night you know you always look so fine
you just like a rock star you know how fine you are yeah
Im'ma take you to a secret place
Drop the shapes and crank the bass, uh hey girl, you know
How to play
(Come to play with me)

taijiu taijiu haiyao zou duojiu
kandejian que zhua budao de shou
midnight zai dengwo de ni qingting zui dongting de eryu
taijiu taijiu haiyao deng duojiu
bishangyan zuo guanyu ni de meng
yinhe de guangmang xia

suoyou xiangwang de muguang dou jizhong zai tade shenshang ladies and gentlemen
suoyou xiangwang de muguang shi weini sanfa de guangliang ladies and gentlemen
tell me about it shining star

hanleng de yewan no? wennuan de yewan yes!
shijie cunzai zhiwei zhushi zhe ni
ladies and gentlemen
ruguo keyi rongru nide guangmang yes
wocunzai ye zhiwei zhushi zhe ni
ladies and gentlemen

[TRANS] [ENG/PINYIN/CHI] EXO- My Turn to Cry (爱离开)

我还在拥抱着 在哭泣的你
I'm still embracing, you who is still crying
那噩梦太清晰 下一秒我也就清醒
That nightmare, too clearly etched in my head, I awake in the next second

心有些叹息 打开窗写信
With sighs in my heart, opening the window, I start to compose a letter
把月光幻想成 仿佛它也正在伤心
Imagining that the moonlight, is also grieving

Remember 你还在
Remember you were here
我不想让你cry (Yeah我)
I do not wish to make you cry (Yeah, I)
让你笑最灿烂的微笑
Letting you smile the brightest smile
离开我的心海 答应我 不要Cry
Escape the depths of my heart, promise me, don't cry
擦不完的眼泪 让我难过
Endless tears, upsetting my heart

爱离开 It's my turn to cry 星星都在看
Love has left, it's my turn to cry, the stars are all onlooking
眼泪快累积成海
Tears are forming an ocean
It's my turn to cry 黑夜多璀璨
It's my turn to cry, the dark sky ever so bright
快关掉眼泪 This time
Hurry switch off your tears, this time

有点泛黄的我们的合照
Our slightly yellowed couple photos
心痛的是我 无法回到那时候
The heart-wrenching moment is when I, cannot return to that time

睡不着每个夜晚
Sleepless nights
关灯后的房间
The room, after switching off the lights
用手描绘着 试着画出你的脸
Using my hands to sketch, attempting to draw your face
你害羞的笑脸 和迷幻的双眼
Your shy, smiling face, and mesmerizing eyes
多想抱你的我怎么办
What to do? I, who want to hug you so much
我离开了以后 别哭着say goodbye
After I leave, don't cry and say goodbye
以后不能来我的臂弯
Not being able to hold you in my arms the next time

爱离开 It's my turn to cry 星星都在看
Love has left, it's my turn to cry, the stars are all onlooking
眼泪快累积成海
Tears are forming an ocean
It's my turn to cry 黑夜多璀璨
It's my turn to cry, the dark sky ever so bright
快关掉眼泪 This time (Oh 你的眼泪 This time yeah)
Hurry switch off your tears, this time (Oh your tears, this time, yeah)

我 （真的）还 （舍不得）在（放弃）爱（我对你）着（那份爱）你 （所以我才让你离去）
I (really) still (cannot bear) am (giving up) love- (I had for you)-ing (the love) you (So I'm letting you go)
请（擦去）你（的泪滴）别（还在）再哭（我心中） I'm missing you
Please (wipe off） your (tears), don't (still) cry again (In my heart) I'm missing you

爱离开 It's my turn to cry 星星都在看
Love has left, it's my turn to cry, the stars are all onlooking
眼泪快累积成海
Tears are forming an ocean
It's my turn to cry 黑夜多璀璨
It's my turn to cry, the dark sky ever so bright
快关掉眼泪 This time (请你别哭baby)
Hurry switch off your tears, this time (Please don't cry, baby)

爱离开 It's my turn to cry 星星都在看
Love has left, it's my turn to cry, the stars are all onlooking
眼泪快累积成海
Tears are forming an ocean
It's my turn to cry 黑夜多璀璨
It's my turn to cry, the dark sky ever so bright
快关掉眼泪 This time
Hurry switch off your tears, this time

快关掉眼泪 This time 快关掉眼泪 This time 快关掉眼泪 This time
Hurry switch off your tears this time (x3)
还在爱你 yeah 还在爱你 woo
Still loving you, yeah, still loving you, woo
我爱你 我爱你 你别再哭 关掉眼泪
I love you, I love you, don't cry, switch off your tears

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cr: @exonyeoshidae
pinyin will be uploaded later. Apologising for any mistranslations.
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UPDATED (PINYIN):
wo haizai yongbao zhe zai kuqi deni
na emeng tai qingxi xiayimiao wo yejiu qingxing
xin youxie tanxi dakai chuang xiexin
ba yueguang huanxiang cheng fangfu ta ye zhengzai shangxin

remember ni haizai
wo buxiang rangni cry (yeah wo)
rangni xiao zui canlan de weixiao
likai wo de xinhai daying wo buyao cry
ca buwan de yanlei rangwo nanguo

ai likai it's my turn to cry xingxing dou zai kan
yanlei kuai leiji chenghai
it's my turn to cry heiye duo cuican
kuai guandiao yanlei this time

youdian fanhuang de women de hezhao
xintong de shiwo wufa huidao na shihou

shuibuzhao meige yewan
guandeng hou de fangjian
yong shou miaohui zhe shizhe huachu nide lian
ni haixiu de xiaolian he mihuan de shuangyan
duoxiang bao ni de wo zenmeban
wo likai le yihou bie kuzhe say goodbye
yihou buneng lai wode biwan

ai likai it's my turn to cry xingxing dou zai kan
yanlei kuai leiji chenghai
it's my turn to cry heiye duo cuican
kuai guandiao yanlei this time (oh nide yanlei this time yeah)

wo (zhende) hai (shebude) zai (fangqi) ai (woduini) zhe (nafen ai) ni (suoyi wocai rangni liqu)
qing (caqu) ni (de leidi) bie (haizai) zaiku (wo xinzhong) i'm missing you

ai likai it's my turn to cry xingxing dou zai kan
yanlei kuai leiji chenghai
it's my turn to cry heiye duo cuican
kuai guandiao yanlei this time (qingni bieku baby)

ai likai it's my turn to cry xingxing dou zai kan
yanlei kuai leiji chenghai
it's my turn to cry heiye duo cuican
kuai guandiao yanlei this time

kuai guandiao yanlei this time (x3)
haizai aini yeah haizai aini woo
wo aini wo aini ni biezai ku guandiao yanlei

[TRANS] [ENG/PINYIN/CHI] EXO- Christmas Day (圣诞节）

Christmas Day (圣诞节）

被心中的期待叫醒的那早晨
That morning when I was awakened by the anticipation in my heart
感觉好像拆开礼物时 那么兴奋
Feels like the excitement I get when I am unwrapping my presents
每一天都对你了解更多一些
Everyday, I got to know you a little more

这城市到处是璀璨耀眼的灯
This city is filled with bedazzling lights
而最闪耀的是你眼里的星辰
Yet the brightest of all, are the stars in your eyes
温柔贴近把 你融化在我怀抱里
Gently, inching closer, melting you in my arms

半梦半醒之间
Dreamily, half-asleep,
仿佛你来到我身边
It feels as if you have come next to me
思绪All Night 翻身All Night
Thoughts all night, tossing (in bed) all night
直到天空慢慢亮起来
Till the sky slowly brightens

Just like the Christmas Day 心早已迫不及待
Just like the Christmas Day, my heart can't wait no longer
Just like the Christmas Day 像心急的小孩
Just like the Christmas Day, like an anxious kid
每次想你 等你好难挨 心情肆意澎湃
Every time I miss you, the wait is unbearable, my feelings willfully surging
You're just like Christmas Day
You're just like Christmas Day

在白色的季节 呼吸变得好冷
In the White Season, my breaths become a lot colder
在我的大衣里 只留下你的体温
My coat is only left with your body warmth
只留下温暖的 记忆把我们包围 (只留下温暖包围）
Left with only the warm memories, embracing us. (Only left with the surrounding warmth)

平凡的我得到命运给予的礼物
The ordinary me, has received the gift that has been entrusted to me by fate
每一天我祈祷上天 可以眷顾
Every day I pray to the Heavens, to bless me
那么虔诚祈祷 你是我的礼物
Sincerely, I pray, that you are my present

就在一夜之间
Just in a night's time
窗外已被白雪覆盖
White snow has covered the entire window
思绪All night 翻身All night
Thoughts all night, tossing (in bed) all night
想念无声的堆积起来
Thoughts silently pile up

Just like the Christmas Day 心早已迫不及待
Just like the Christmas Day, my heart can't wait no longer
Just like the Christmas Day 像心急的小孩
Just like the Christmas Day, like an anxious kid
每次想你 等你好难挨 心情肆意澎湃
Every time I miss you, the wait is unbearable, my feelings willfully surging
You're just like Christmas Day

Just like the Christmas Day 心早已迫不及待
Just like the Christmas Day, my heart can't wait no longer
Just like the Christmas Day 像心急的小孩
Just like the Christmas Day, like an anxious kid
每次想你 等你好难挨 心情肆意澎湃
Every time I miss you, the wait is unbearable, my feelings willfully surging
You're just like Christmas Day

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cr: @exonyeoshidae
pinyin will be uploaded later. Sorry for any mistranslations.
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UPDATED (PINYIN):
bei xinzhong de qidai jiaoxing de na zaochen
ganjue haoxiang chaikai liwu shi name xingfen
meiyitian dou duini liaojie gengduo yixie

zhechengshi daochu shi cuican yaoyan de deng
er zui shanyao deshi ni yanli de xingchen
wenrou tiejin ba ni ronghua zaiwo huaibao li

banmeng banxing zhijian
fangfu ni laido wo shenbian
sixu all night fanshen all night
zhidao tiankong manman liangqilai

Just like the Christmas Day, xin zaoyi pobujidai
Just like the Christmas Day, xiang xinji de xiaohai
meici xiangni dengni hao nanai xinqing siyi pengpai
You're just like Christmas Day

zai baise de jijie huxi biande hao leng
zai wode dayi li zhi liuxia nide tiwen
zhi liuxia wennuan de jiyi ba women baowei (zhi liuxia wennuan baowei)

pingfan de wo dedao mingyun jiyu de liwu
meiyitian wo qidao shangtian keyi juangu
name qiancheng qidao nishi wode liwu

jiuzai yiye zhijian
chuangwai yibei baixue fugai
sixu all night fanshen all night
xiangnian wusheng de duiji qilai

Just like the Christmas Day, xin zaoyi pobujidai
Just like the Christmas Day, xiang xinji de xiaohai
meici xiangni dengni hao nanai xinqing siyi pengpai
You're just like Christmas Day

Just like the Christmas Day, xin zaoyi pobujidai
Just like the Christmas Day, xiang xinji de xiaohai
meici xiangni dengni hao nanai xinqing siyi pengpai
You're just like Christmas Day

[TRANS] [ENG/PINYIN/CHI] EXO- Miracles in December (Chinese ver.)

我望眼欲穿 看我看不到的你
I stare wistfully, at you whom I'm not able to see

我侧耳倾听 听我听不到的你
I listen intently, to you whom I'm not able to hear

看到曾看不见的画面 听到听不见的声线
Seeing what I used to not see, hearing the voice I used to not hear

你给了我超能力
You gave me supernatural powers

在你离开了我以后
After you left me

曾经的我太过自私 只照顾我自己
Back then I was too selfish, only caring about myself

曾经的我太傻不懂得你的心
Back then I was such a fool, I didn't understand your heart

现在的我一天天在改变 明明你不在我身边
Yet now I'm changing, everyday, even though you are obviously not next to me

却因为你而改变 因为你给的爱
Yet now I'm changing, because of you, because of the love you gave me

每一次我想你 全世界每一处都是你
Every time I think of you, every corner of the world turns into you

夜空下的雪花 每朵都是你的泪滴
The falling snow under the night-sky, are like your teardrops

好想你瞬间就在眼前
How I wish you are suddenly in front of me

好想让你回到我身边
How I wish you could come back to me

这无力的超能力 也没有办法挽回你
This useless power of mine, can't even bring you back to me

曾经的我太过自私只照顾我自己
Back then I was too selfish, only caring about myself

曾经的我太傻不懂得你的心
Back then I was such a fool, I didn't understand your heart

现在的我一天天在改变 明明你不在我身边
Yet now I'm changing, everyday, even though you are obviously not by my side

却因为你而改变 因为你给的爱
Yet now I'm changing, because of you, because of the love you gave me

把时间冻结
Freeze the time

回到你身边
Returning to your side

那回忆的书
That book of memory

翻回过去那一页
Flipping back to that page

那一页的你我 那时候的你和我
You and I, on that page; you and I, at that moment

不够坚强的我 天天在改变
I, who didn't have enough determination, am changing everyday

因为你的爱
Because of your love

你改变了一切 (我整个生命)
You have changed everything (My entire life)

这一切 （我整个世界）
All of it (My entire world)

曾经我对于爱情不懂感谢珍惜
Back then I didn't know how to appreciate and treasure love

曾经我以为爱结束也不可惜
Back then I used to think that a severed love is not worth a pity.

而现在我 却因为你改变
Yet now, I am changing, because of you

明明你不在我身边
Even though you are obviously not next to me

我的爱还在继续 就像没有边际
My love is still continuing, as if it is borderless

把时间冻结 （Oh 我还想）
Freeze the time （Oh，I'm still thinking of)

回到你身边 (回到你身边)
Returning to your side (Returning to your side)

那回忆的书 (Oh 那回忆）
That book of memory (Oh that memory)

充满悲伤的语言
Filled with words of sorrow

随着眼泪消失
Disappearing with the tears

再回到那白色季节
Going back to the white season

我望眼欲穿 看我看不到的你
I stare wistfully, at you whom I'm not able to see

我侧耳倾听 听我听不到的你
I listen intently, to you whom I'm not able to hear


cr: @exonyeoshidae
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Will update this post with the pinyin later. Sorry for any mistranslations. Had to rush this out and FEELS ;;
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UPDATED:

wo wangyan yuchuan kanwo kanbudao deni
wo ceer qingting tingwo tingbudao deni
kandao ceng kanbujian de huamian
tingdao tingbujian de shengxian

ni geilewo chaonengli
zaini likai lewo yihou

cengjing dewo taiguo zisi zhi zhaogu woziji
cengjing dewo taisha budongde nidexin
xianzai dewo yitiantian zai gaibian
mingming ni buzai woshenbian
que yinwei nier gaibian
yinwei ni gei deai

meiyici woxiangni quanshijie meiyichu doushi ni
yekongxia de xuehua meiduo doushi nide leidi
haoxiang ni shunjian jiuzai yanqian
haoxiang rang ni huidao woshenbian
zhe wuli de chaonengli ye meiyou banfa wanhui ni

cengjing dewo taiguo zisi zhi zhaogu woziji
cengjing dewo taisha budongde nidexin
xianzai dewo yitiantian zai gaibian
mingming ni buzai woshenbian
que yinwei nier gaibian
yinwei ni gei deai

ba shijian dongjie
huidao ni shenbian
na huiyi de shu
fanhui guoqu na yiye
na yiye de niwo
na shihou de ni he wo

bugou jianqiang dewo tiantian zai gaibian
yinwei ni de ai
ni gaibian le yiqie (wo zhengge shengming)
zhe yiqie (wo zhengge shijie)

cengjing wo duiyu aiqing budong ganxie zhenxi
cengjing wo yiwei ai jieshu ye bu kexi

er xianzai wo que yinwei ni gaibian
mingming ni buzai woshenbian
wode ai haizai jixu jiuxiang meiyou bianji

ba shijian dongjie (oh wohaixiang)
huidao ni shenbian (huidao ni shenbian)
na huiyi de shu (oh na huiyi)
chongman beishang de yuyan
suizhe yanlei xiaoshi
zai huidao na baise jijie

wo wangyan yuchuan kanwo kanbudao deni
wo ceer qingting tingwo tingbudao deni

The end; the beginning

It is finally the end of A Level examinations, and the start of everything.

No more Physics theories, Math formulas, Economic structures and Chemistry diagrams for the rest of my life~
From now on, I'm gonna live, for myself.

These few years have been tiring, and albeit meaningless.
I mean, I love reading some of the notes that were given to me tbh, but the thought of reading it because I have to memorise them and use them in tests just turns me off.
Sometimes, being a student makes me forget that I'm a human, too.


So, remember my celebratory plans?
Here it is!

Rushed off immediately after the chief examiner (?) released us and ran from the school to the MRT station with my friend. Had my deer plushie with me~

FREEDOM!

It still feels pretty much surreal to me... the fact that I have graduated from this system.
This tiring routine of studying (for the sake of A Level), staying up late (for the sake of A Level), getting stressed up (for the sake of A Level), being restricted and not able to do what I want (for the sake of A Level).
Gone.

18 years. Okay, maybe that's exaggerated. Technically, for 6+4+2 years *inserts "OMG IT'S 12!" joke*, I have been told and instructed and forced and pressurized by the society to prepare for this major exam. And then suddenly, it's..
Gone.

And all of a sudden, I'm lost.

Previously, I kept telling myself that "I will do this after A Level" and "How I wish I can do this but A Level", and now, the chance is given to me. Yet.. I'm too overwhelmed by it.

There's this uncertainty in the future, which I really don't like.

What am I going to do now? What am I going to do tomorrow? The day after. Next week. Next month.

The thought of my future scares me.
I don't want to grow up. I don't want to grow old.
I don't want to die.
And when I die, I don't want to regret a single thing.

Here's the plan.
1. $
First on the list: Make as much money as possible.
After all, you can't deny that money is the solution to most problems.

Found a temporary job for four days, 28NOV-1DEC at SITEX '13.
Yup, a day after my freedom. Hardcore much, huh?
It was a cashiering job for ~12hours, including preparation and packing up time.
It drains pretty much all your energy, and it was the first time I felt physically tired and sleep deprived. Had to eat my dinner at 12AM-ish for the past four days. And I fell asleep twice in front of the computer after that.

Dinner at 12AM #yolo

But I have to say that it taught me quite a lot, dealing with customers of all kinds, interacting with your boss and coworkers, meeting your primary and JC schoolmates at work :/ , coping with all sorts of impromptu situations...
SPEAKING OF WHICH, I HAD A FEW HILARIOUS MOMENTS AHAHAHAH
Some customers practically scrawled their names and one of them was "RIZAL" and being a responsible and dutiful cashier, I went on to confirm with him, asking, "Is your name R-1-2-A-2?"
Okay, I admit that it was a mistake on my part for not being able to read names. But it's so funny I can't stop laughing whenever I recall the incident. (Talking about my mistake, not the customer's name/handwriting kay)

Currently working on an application for another job, which I will reveal if I get it.
Meanwhile, I'm on the constant lookout for more jobs to earn as much as possible to fund my other plans.

2. December to August... Or more.
The expected path after A-level would be university entrance, and if my results are good enough, I will most probably be going to NUS and applying for FASS- Communications and New Media. And the new term will begin in August.

However, I am considering an alternative option which is taking a gap year.
During that one year (or even two), I want to study Korean at Yonsei KLI, explore Korea, and experience living overseas alone and doing things on my own.

At the same time, like what I have said before, do random things that have been on my to do list for quite some time. Learn how to play the guitar, dance, and maybe, photography.
Because life isn't all about studying and living up to society's expectations.
You own your life.

3. Schedule
2-8DEC: FREE (i.e. plan, pack, shop)
9DEC: PROM
13DEC: Attend a wedding dinner (FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD)
14-15DEC: Camp


That's about all. This is just a post to wrap up my As life. And a post to welcome my future.
All is well. :)

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time

Know there was something that, and something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets,
Leave something to remember, so they won't forget

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I've done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here

I want to say I lived each day, until I die
And know that I meant something in, somebody's life
The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave
That I made a difference, and this world will see

[TEXT TRANS] I'm just, //that// in love with my idol

Even when the entire world turns into rubble, having you alone, is enough.


1.

You have an idol whom you like.


So you became the "fanatic", "person without priorities" that everyone is talking about.
You are stanning what others call "Korean stars", and supposedly, you no longer listen to the music of your own mother tongue.
You bought many language books in order to learn how to speak your idols' language.
Not paying enough attention in class, posters filling up your bedroom's walls, staring into your computer screen to see your idols everyday.
Your handphone is full of your idols' photos and songs.
Spending all your allowance on an album, or a ticket to a concert.

You slowly feel unwelcomed by your friends, because you will never understand the topics that they are discussing,
and on the other hand, you are passionate about things that they don't know,
you listen to the kind of music that they can never comprehend, and you are speaking with a vocabulary that is not in line with theirs.

They say, "Koreans are all ugly". "The stars that you see are all actually products of plastic surgery."
"See, these people look as if they went to the same plastic surgeon."
"Don't believe? Go and roam around the streets of Korea, there isn't a single pretty soul."

You feel helpless.

They say, "How can you even like Koreans? Are you even patriotic and loyal to your own country?"
"There are also people who are pretty and talented in your homeland, why must you like Koreans?"

You feel angry.

They say, "How are Korean stars talented? Every song is just noise, aren't they all produced with autotune?"
"Their live performances are painful for the ears."
"Their lyrics, do you even understand? If you don't, then what's so good about it?"

You feel upset.

But so what if you rebut?

They address your idols as 'suckers' and you, as 'brainless, idiotic fans'.

They unfollow you on social media, because you always retweet useless things about your idols.

In their eyes, you are crazy, childish, unloyal, and illogical.

You feel wronged.

You know, you know it all. Your idol may not be all-natural, nor hundred percent perfect.

But, you just love him/her so, so much, so much till you don't care about everything.

I'm just, that in love with my idol.
I'm just, that in love with my idol.


2.
What do you like about your idol, then?


I like his intricate features.
I like his clumsy, adorable personality.
I like the way he beams when he smiles.
I like how he widens his eyes while doing aegyo with his fists clunched.
I like how he acts cute to his fans, like a kid.
I like how he runs wild on stage freely.
I like his occasional sarcasm.
I like how he does things his way because he has his hyungs to back him up.
I like how he rests obediently on his hyungs' shoulders.
I like how he cares about his hyungs.
I like how he spaces out.
I like how he almost burned the kitchen while cooking.
I like his slow reactions.
I like his occasional mischief.
I like how he is like a crazy guy.
I like how much effort he puts in to surprise his fans.
I like the way he closes his eyes while singing.
I like the focused look on his face when dancing.
I like his determination and tolerance.
I like how gentle he is towards his fans.
I like his everything.

I really, really like him.

It's so much till I think no one could ever replace him.
In my heart, he is like a small kid, who is reluctant to come out.
He is older than I am, by a lot, yet I am spoiling him like how a mum would.
I want to caress him in my arms, take good care of him, and not let him suffer a single bit.
Online, I call him my son, my baby, my sweetheart.
I despise his craziness, I look down at how he doesn't want to take off his insoles,
I can't at his stubbornness, I hate OTPS.

But, such a familiar stranger, the moment you see him, you would end up in tears.

Even a simple "I love you" couldn't come out easily from your mouth.

That, is a person whom you have loved with your entire youth.
He accompanied you through many helpless nights, he encouraged you when you were facing so many obstacles,
he supported you through all your sorrows.
When you were lost, when you were alone, when you were sad, when you were afraid,
just a single thought of him will give you so much courage.

You are obviously so familiar with him, but you feel as if, a meeting with him would take a lifetime's luck.

You feel that, him calling you "girlfriend" or "my babies", is already a big gift from God.

When he is sad, you feel even sadder.

When he is in love, you say that you would wish him happiness, but you silently wet your pillow with your tears during nighttime.

For him, and in order to work with him, you want to become someone even more successful, to become someone worthy to be his fan.

This type of love, has got nothing to do with nationality.


3.
Idiot.


Whenever you sing praises of him, there will always be someone saying, "If he is that good, why don't you marry him?"

I believe that you would have shook your head firmly, saying, "No, he deserves someone better than me."

Yup, when saying this, doesn't it pinch your heart a little?
Of course, you like him so much no one could ever take his place in your heart.
But he is such a bright star, with so many pairs of eyes on him, there are so many people who are like you, who love him so much.
It can't be possible that everyone will marry him.
You understand, that he will not be that little kid forever, he will have to marry and have children one day.
Your OTPs, be it official or non-popular ships, are all the same here. The probability of it happening is really small.

But in your heart, no one can be good enough to deserve him.

You feel that, the girl in the future, has to be very very beautiful, very very talented. Because it's only so that she is deserving of the guy whom you were in love with for so many years.
You smile and wish them all the best, because you too, have to grow up, you are no longer that girl who wants to get married to him.
And the kid whom you have always been carrying in your hands, will never be your man.

Despite so, you will still feel disheartened. For this entire life, you will never become his whatever.
No matter how long you have persisted in this love of yours, you are still an anonymous person who loves him.

There won't be any outcome, but you still persisted for so many years.

I love you, you have to believe, that I love you more than any other soul in the world.

But ultimately, I won't get to own you.

It's like a, though stirring, but hopeless one-sided crush.

To stan an idol, how painful must it have been.


4
Dear idol, up till now, I couldn't believe that,... what sort of good deeds have I done in my past life,
that I'm able to meet you now?

Back in those days when you like him, you will feel really blessed just to receive updates about him.

I've treated you as my baby, dear.

I've written so many letters for you, even though I know that you may not have the chance to read it, I'm still writing.

Today, I cried for you for a really long time again, silly, if you get injured again I'd fly over to teach you a lesson.

Today, I baked a birthday cake for you, it's really pretty, but it's such a pity that I have to eat it by myself, as usual.

Today, I went to watch your concert, dear, don't cry again next time, it's so embarrassing, noona's heart will ache.

I went to Korea for a tour, when I entered your shop, I actually cried, it must have been embarrassing.

I went to the fansign, and queued for a really long time before I managed to see you. You must have not slept well last night, silly, you have to take care of yourself.

I went to your concert again, you cried, but this time, I cried even harder.

I waited for a really long time outside your company building today, you didn't come out, but I still feel really happy, because, I was so close to you.

Today... I think I saw you on the streets. You were walking really fast, it must have been something important. I didn't went up for your autograph, because your safety is more important than anything.

Back in those days when you like him, as long as he gets hurt for a little bit, you would feel upset.

Today, in the airport, why did you fall? Are you hurt? You have to take care of yourself, okay?

Today, why did you cry.... Silly, though it pains my heart, it's still good that you got to let it out.

Don't treat variety shows that serious anymore okay, I believe that you can perform well, and I will always support you.

You got injured again..... Is it painful? Did you go for a checkup at the hospital?

Today's Twitter post... What made you upset again?? Silly, don't worry, don't be afraid. We got your back, as always.

Silly, don't say that. I will never leave the fandom, because you are here. I swear, I'll follow you for the rest of my life. Because you want us to be here, so we will never leave.
In the future, I will never let you worry about such stuff again.

Back in those days when you like him, any little heartwarming things that he did would make you so fuzzy inside.

Just how much effort have he put in, so that he could remember a fan's face and thank her in person?
Just how grateful he must be, that he would bow again and again?
When we were waiting outside, under the hot sun, you were inside, thinking about us.
You said, you love us, you would treat us as your girlfriends. I love you too, and I will treat you as the most important person in my life.

You said, 20 years later, we would still be together. I will continue to love forever, till the day I die, is this enough?

My idol, you are also the most precious gift that I've ever received in my entire life.

My idol, because I am not able to be by your side, so ... can you take good care of yourself?

Your body and health, are more important than anything.

I wanted you to treat yourself better, but you treat us better than how you treat yourself.

My idol, just how nice can you be?

So nice, so nice, why would anyone even bear to leave you guys..


5
My idol.. So, a deep-seated teenage love could last forever??


We will definitely grow old, and we will never achieve what we wanted to do when we were still teens, wanting to be their brides.
They will mature into men, and we, will graduate, and be busy with our work, and will never have the chance to wait for updates in front of our computers 24/7 like how we used to in the past.
Maybe, someday in the future, we would log in to our Twitter account which we haven't been going on for a while, refresh the timeline, and then find out that, oh , it's their overseas concert today.
The newest picture that you have in your phone, has become an old one,
yet your wallpaper, is still that person whom you love dearly.
You hold on to your phone, reading the updates,
and suddenly you rest your head on the table, full of tears.

Actually, at times when we thought that we have forgotten certain things, certain people,
he/she is actually deep inside our hearts.
Actually, he hasn't changed, neither have you.
Despite the passing years, you still love him. And he will never leave your heart.
Despite not seeing him in a while, the moment you could see him, tears have followed your heart's wishes.

He is still, the most beautiful memory of your youth.

Hi, my idol, how I wish that one day in the near future, I will be able to meet you on the streets.
It doesn't matter if you are still as popular, or you have become a star of the past, I will wave to you nonetheless,
and then, willfully smile with tears streaking down my cheeks, and tell you,

My dear idol, I love you. In every second of my life, I was loving you.

It's just that, for this "I love you", it has taken me years.





chi-eng trans: @exonyeoshidae
original: http://ww3.sinaimg.cn/large/a8da184bgw1e7b2g41t1tj20c877iasz.jpg
(cr:汐苶君)

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Apologising for any grammatical/spelling mistakes.

[TEXT TRANS] I did everything willingly.

If we were to exchange our identities in our next lifetime,
with me being the idol and you being the fan, will you be as crazy as I am now?

Will your eyes turn red because of the things that I've went through?
Will your voice turn hoarse from screaming in order to give me support at my concert?
Will you stay up late at night to vote just to keep me up in the rankings?
Will you give up a sumptuous meal or new clothes for my posters and albums?
Will you get into a fight with someone who insulted me in order to get them to shut up?
Will you tear up at the sight of me bowing 90degrees?
Will your heart ache when I get injured?
Will you work hard to earn loads of money just to see me at my overseas concerts?
Will you cry silently in the middle of the night because you miss me?
Will you get agitated and excited when you hear my songs playing, and see my posters on the streets till you are being mistaken as a lunatic?
Will you remember each and every single habit of mine?
Will you stare at the computer screen for hours just to learn my dance?
Will you like the things that I like?
Will you buy a product of a certain brand/model just because I own it, too?
Will you cry till your eyes are swollen when I'm at lost and when I had to apologise??
Will you get excited when we are in body contact?
Will you become stronger because of me?
Will you stifle your tears, because of my words, or, after receiving a hug from me??

If you will, then, in the next lifetime, just let me continue to be your fan.
Because I can't bear to let you love me in such a humble manner.

(cr:若小鹿不会跑)
chi-eng trans: @exonyeoshidae
original text: http://ww4.sinaimg.cn/bmiddle/948e264djw1e7g6os21hpg20hs0zktbl.gif

BTS 방탄소년단 - N.O

Loving the song (and MV) N.O by the Bangtan boys.

I love~ their previous two title tracks No More Dream and We Are Bulletproof, and N.O certainly lived up to my expectations.

The lyrics for the songs are like mini social commentaries, complete with their touch of rebellion. It is not just singing about things that are happening in the society, but also conveying the want, and the desire to break out of societal norms. And this is further amplified with their heavy beats and raps that are not just fast, but, I don't know, angry/angsty? How they are expressing their frustrations with the way the society works. Most importantly, I find their song totally relatable, as a youth, and perhaps as a youth who is living in an Asian country, where some of the things really resonate with and reflect the society that I'm living in. WHICH is why I have this strong urge to write such a long post about N.O.

For those who haven't watched the MV yet, here goes: 

Let's start with the MV, shall we?~ 

We are first presented with the boys, sitting, with their backs up straight, in a cold, white room, where we get a rough idea that this is a (familiar) classroom setting. The scene is pretty much just black and white, and this monotonicity sets the mood for the MV.

The camera then pans to each of the member's face, and it turns out that each of them has the same, expressionless..well, expression. The boys are then given a red pill, which I presume is a studying pill, or something that programs them to study. The imagery of robots, or studying machines is also explicitly mentioned in the lyrics itself, and this idea is continued in the next few scenes, with them moving in sync, with precise timings. The idea of "Everyone lives the same life".

The introduction of red is striking to the eye, as it contrasts with the black and white theme, hinting a sense of harshness and perhaps enmity. 

There were a few scenes of them buldging and itching to move. But they were stopped many times. And flashing dance scenes with the red backdrop, somehow reminds me of blood. I know this might sound a bit too farstretched but I just want to point out what I have inferred and felt from watching the MV. You guys can have your opinion. :) It's like, the rebellion that is running in the blood.

We also notice the teacher who is holding some sort of a baton, instructing and commanding the students. In our society, we are often taught to believe in whatever that has been taught to us, and accept them fully. This is again, the idea of conformity and how everyone is being moulded and fine-tuned to fit the needs and demands of the society, and not defying orders.

And then we finally get to the part where the boys stand up to "rebel"/ say no, and the song breaks into the chorus and we are led to the main theme of the song, which is to do what you want, because "it's now or never".

Towards the end, we see a change in the sets, with the big hands in the background, where they continue the metaphor of us (okay I said it) being manipulated by the adults like puppets, with our lives in the hands of our parents where they make the decisions for us and tell us what THEY THINK is right. The choreography of them trying to fight the... force (?)  is an attempt at making intangible things into something that we can see, it is the struggling with the social norms, the fight within. We might appear to surrender just to please the world and the people around us, as seen by them kneeling with the hands behind their heads, by going to school, going for tuition, etc, but the passion inside us tells us otherwise.
 

It is relatable to the world as a whole, but what makes this song even better is how it fits South Korea. It acts as a whistle-blower to a certain extent, maybe not so much but at least it is making an effort to.
Initially, I was slightly put off by the line "in Seoul to the SKY", and I thought that it was just another example of a randomly inserted English line in Kpop songs, but I was wrong. SKY is an acronym for the top three, most prestigious universities in Korea, namely: Seoul National University, Korea University, and Yonsei University. So lesson of the day, watch eng rom han MVs and do more googling before judging a K-pop song.

And now, to my favourite part of the song, when the beat of the song changes and slows down and the lyrics say, "Adults tell me that hardships are only momentary, to endure it a little more, to do it later."

This is also a running theme in the lyrics. It is not just about teens vs society, but vs what the adults tell us to do. It hints at the disappointment we have, not just in society but the adults. We hope and thought that they would understand us. They themselves experienced this when they were younger, too, no?

And this led me to another question: as much as we complain now, are we going to tell our kids the same thing? Is this just a dream that can only be expressed in songs? 

With this, I close my Youtube tab and go back to work. 

But somewhere deep in my heart, I long for change. 

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It has been a long time since I last posted something on this blog.
Busy with preparations for prelims and A level. (Ah, the irony.)

Will work on my blog more often when I am free.
And yes, I think I need to change the URL soon. Came up with it when I was in primary school. (That explains the infantility of it.)
Oh and I can't really answer my ask.fm on a regular basis for now because of the As so if there's something urgent, just message me on Line/Kakaotalk: zachela

There's so many things that I want to do after my As so ANTICIPATE.
Freaking excited for the life ahead! But I have to get pass A level first. :/
Good luck to me. And you!

Leaving you with a quote from my grandmother:

Work hard now, to show others that it was a right decision to stan your idol.

[HD] 130622 Girls' Generation at Asia Style Collection.

The HD photos that I have taken are up~
Not as good as the ones taken by fansites (obviously), but this is my first time and my hands were trembling lol.
Didn't really do any PS for the girls, because they are perfect already.
Just did some cropping, and added in my logo/watermark.
Not really a artsy person so my logo/watermark is just a simple font with my name. Not like I can take photos of idols frequently, so.. I'll revise it when I go to Korea next year!
ENJOY~

[TEXT TRANS] Just give me five minutes of your time, okay? ; Luhan

He is very loyal; he even blushes when fans confess their love for him loudly in the public. He doesn't know how to please his fans; he always says the same line: Take care of your body, wear more/thicker clothes, thank you all, love you all.
Many girls like him, '00 liners, '90s liners, '80s liners, and even older noona fans.

Today is his birthday, some younger fans made ignorant comments which got people angry.
After that, older fans started to apologise at lightning speed.

Also, maybe you guys don't bother to know, but I still want to say that, Luhan fansites of all scales have donated nearly 20000RMB in his name.
And hundreds of individual fans have donated 50, 100, and even thousands.
Luhan's fans knew that it was going to rain and already bought raincoats to send them to the disaster area at 4 o' clock.
At 7 o' clock, Luhan's fans pooled their money to buy rescue items for the victims. Within half an hour, they've managed to pool 10000RMB. They would buy the items as fast as possible and send them to Ya An.

And before his birthday, for the past year, Luhan's fans did their best for various charity organisations, for the old folks, the animals, the poor, and the young.
They bought food for the old, they bought clothings for them and even sang songs. They sent blankets for the animals and played with them. They bought stationery, notebooks and books for the kids.
They went to every area, all because of a boy called Luhan, they went there to become a better person.
We are all Chinese, we are doing stuff to make a difference.

Ya An earthquake; we are all frantically refreshing our timelines to help call and look for people.
But it seemed like you guys don't care about these, you caught those younger fans who are immature, and ignored the majority of us who are crying for the victims, who are cheering the victims on.

I would like to hold onto your hands, we would want to become one with you all.
We share the same feeling of loving the country, so please don't push us away.

At the last minute, allow me to share a story.
Next to a deer, grew a patch of wild vegetables and poisonous mushrooms.
Then came a drought and there were no food left. Someone came, the poisoned mushrooms were eye-catching and were hence taken away.

After that, someone got poisoned, and everyone came looking for the deer.
Everyone trashed him, scolded him and put the blame on him.

But the deer couldn't talk, he could only look at the people with a gentle look on his face.
The wild vegetables that were secretly in love with the deer, forced themselves to secrete glistening dew to attract the people's attention.
Please eat us, please eat us, we are not poisonous.


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Because of love, we keep on giving regardless of anything.
Fans to idol are like water to fish.
The fish is grateful to the water for letting him live, and growing up with him.
And the water only replies in ripples, "Because I love you."

This is turning into a distorted confession.
Thank you for reading.

Ya An hwaiting. China hwaiting.
Once again, I apologise for those brainless comments made by ignorant fans.

Of course, this doesn't apply to those who are just riding on the wave and criticising without even knowing the issue.
It is not scary to follow, but the scary thing is when you don't speak humanely.


written by: 八宝-雅安加油
translated by: @exonyeoshidae

[TRANS] There is a Chinese dragon from exoplanet, he can fly, he is still okay.

[TRANS] [TEXT] He's called Wu Yifan, he is a Chinese.

I'm a Year Two student from Senior High, written many essays and novelettes, ranging from critical to comical ones, with a style that is distinctively mine, but regarding this one that I'm writing now about Wu Yifan, I can only say that, maybe it is better to write it plainly and straight to the point. What I am about to say, is based on the Wu Yifan whom I know, it is from my own perspective, he belongs to everyone, I can't say that I know him very well, but I love him the way everyone else who loves him does.


The most undenial thing about him would be his looks, many would call it "handsome", everytime I'm refreshing Weibo I'd also say "handsome", but in fact I feel that the word "handsome" is too shallow, some people only have a beautiful outer appearance, but empty inside. He has a heart that is unstoppably warm, one of the many reasons why his numerous fans can't leave him.

The warmth he exuberates at the airport- specially buying a luggage to contain the presents that his fans gave, the way he leads the group, the image of him holding in his tears during the award presentation, the look of him lowering his head to look after the members, the good leader who exchanges opinions with the crew softly, too many, I can't finish talking about, or write. How he changes from a bitchface guy, to how we fans want him to be like, there are also fans who are weak-hearted that left the fandom, and most of all, there will be fans who only love him for his looks, but regardless of all these, he keeps on trying to work hard, harder, and even harder, to become better.

In terms of variety sense, he goes along with the host and tempo of the show, everytime when requested to do something that is difficult in his position, he will always smile shyly saying, "Maybe next time." Also showing off his drawing and writing skills on variety programmes, telling us "I, have a good handwriting and I am not bad at drawing."

Fluent in Chinese, English, Cantonese and Korean, but he is very modest, never showing off, always in low profile, not snatching the limelight off anyone.

At the airport, he knows that fans are tired and having it tough, despite being squeezed and stuck in the jam, he doesn't flare up, and kindheartedly tells his fans to be careful, meanwhile, with apologetic looks on his face while saying sorry to the workers that he caused the jam, and also taking care of his friend who came to fetch him.

Whenever there's any festivals or during the New Year, he never fails to send his regards to the fans, writing a "love letter" for them.

I just want to tell him: I like you in every way, just like how you like every single one of us, you don't need to cater to us, you just need to keep flying, chasing after your expectations and dreams. The most blissful thing for me, isn't seeing you sending a flying kiss to the camera or any sorts of fanservice. To me, your success, seeing how you, despite all the obstacles, still managing to soar up, step by step, with determination. It is then, when you shine the brightest, it is then, when Wu Yifan is the most handsome.

You are on a bridge, looking at the scenery, while those who are looking at the scenery, are looking at you.

You just need to care about bringing your members with you with your flight, I will be forever looking at you from the back.


He is a Chinese, he is working hard in Korea. He first knew Zhang Yixing, he protected Zhang Yixing like how a elder brother protects the younger one.

He is tall, even though he has a model-built, able to pull off all sorts of clothings, his dancing is the most off-balance one in the team, because of his longs arms and legs. This is of no doubt, something troublesome, but he pulled through it in the four years. Four years, a long time, but he just mention casually about his trainee years.

Was it tough? The uncountable moments of standing on your own, pulling a luggage while returning back to China occasionally. He cried at the awards ceremony, with Zhang Yixing crying on his left, he has to stop himself from crying while taking care of him. We all know, Kris is someone who doesn't like to cry in the team. But he did, just after watching one video. Is it exhausting, is it tiring, have he recalled the difficulties he encountered in the past? Was he overwhelmed by the concern and warmth the fans have given him? I saw online that many fans have cried because of him, I didn't, my heart just felt really wrenched looking at him, thinking, "Yup, this is the Wu Yifan whom I really love."

What I see, is his success now, no, to him these are just temporary, this entertainment industry is too harsh, competitive and the risk of getting kicked out is high. But to step on the global stage, like his Super Junior seniors, to be able to write a historic moment, is his dream.

He has developed a strong character since young, knowing that he has to take care of his mother, and thus made himself a stronger person. He used his most, most determined look to hold everything together. He understands the meaning of responsibility, he likes girls who are filial and are devoted to the family. See, the first thing he said isn't "pretty" or "cute". He is someone who can't forget the past, that black bag, he kept using and using, even if it is torn.

We call him the king, the one with godly features. But ultimately, he is a 23-year old boy. Loves to eat, difficult to wake up in the morning, someone who does aegyo, and someone who misses home.

As ordinary as us.


This is my first time liking an artiste, not because of his looks, but his inner character. I like every member of EXO, but the first time I saw Wu Yifan, I got caught by his smiling self. Even if 20 years have passed, my own children don't know the story of EXO, don't know the existence of Wu Yifan, I will still proudly hold up their albums, his photos, and tell my kids, your mum, when she was younger, liked this group, this particular person, they are so, so, talented and great.

People who don't follow stars, will never understand fans, because they have not experienced before, never liked before, never empathised before, so they can never understand how we feel joy from our idols' success.

Ending soon, though I'm writing this because someone wanted me to write something about him, but I'm feeling especially happy after writing this, writing for Wu Yifan, there is something satisfying from this.

There is a Chinese dragon from exoplanet, he can fly, he is still okay.


From: Ace爸爸哪里都很大
Trans: @exonyeoshidae
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I teared towards the end.
Guys, we got into the correct fandom, we made a right choice to stan this guy, and his team.

[TRANS] To EXO's antis.

I don't know what reasons you have
Maybe you thought they are not talented enough
Maybe you thought they took away your idols' popularity

kk
I shall not prove to you now
How ridiculous these "reasons" are

However
Regardless of your age, be it that you are older or younger than them
Try to recall or imagine...

WHEN YOU WERE 17
Were you alone, pursuing your dreams in a foreign country, battling loneliness and thoughts of missing home?

Will you practise dancing until the extent that you are betting your life on it every day? Only realising it when it is midnight?

Have you, not dared to call your mum, because you were afraid that you might not be able to hold it in and cry?

WHEN YOU WERE 18
Will you work and continue with your studies at the same time, and be able to maintain good results?

Have you tried putting your all for five years, with a body full of injuries?

WHEN YOU WERE 19
Will you, after undergoing all sorts of hardships, leave behind aggrieved yearnings or tears of gratitude?

WHEN YOU WERE 20
Have you insisted to continue working when your most fragile organ-eyes were hurt?

WHEN YOU WERE 21
Will you, in the midst of unbearable pain, still not forget about completing your task?

WHEN YOU WERE 22
Have you, because you have experienced things of all sorts, tear at the moment when you received affirmation?

Are you able to be humble, polite and modest anytime, anywhere?

Are you able to keep your smile anytime, anywhere?

If your answer is no,
then
Please shut up.

Every person who has a dream, is worth of receiving affirmation.
Every person who is willing to work hard, is worth of following.

They are not cloned products, neither are they substitutes.
I can understand that you may dislike them, but I can never tolerate denial.
I can accept that you are not supporting them, but I can never tolerate insults.

But I still have to thank you all
To be able to withstand insults, makes you someone who is worthy of praises.
The number of obstacles you create for us, we are able to translate this into LOVE that is a thousand, million times bigger.

I don't know how long you will continue to hate
But I dare to bet, that we will protect and guard them, longer than you anti them.

Because
They strive hard, they care
They work hard, they are humble.
Their perseverence, and the fact that they accomplished what I couldn't do. Something called a dream.

So they are worth it.
So I am willing.
To stand by them.
To stand by us.

The only and only EXO.

by: my_deerdeer
trans by: @exonyeoshidae

[TRANS] That's why, you must remember your idol.

When you are feeling too tired, you must remember your idol.

That is, the idol whom you were once so crazily in love with.
That is, the idol whom you used to memorise their facts faster than memorising new vocabulary.
That is, the idol whom you used to write about, about how much you love them on your blog.
That is, the idol whom you are able to type his/her name on the keyboard even with your eyes closed.

You must be thankful, but at the same time clearheaded.
When someone forcefully asks you, what on earth made them worthy of you wasting your youth on them,
you must tell him,
I only gave my most beautiful memory to them, but they gave up more precious stuff than me during that period of youth.

When you are on the field under the hot sun for physical training,
you need to remember, your idol once perspired profusely in the practice room for you.
When you are sitting in class, with absolutely no interest in the textbook,
you need to remember, your idol once, for the rehearsal, hurt his/her vocal cords.
When you are sprawling on your bed, complaining about how tough your day was,
you need to remember, your idol had to perform on stage for you despite running a high fever, or sitting in a wheelchair.

He is your idol.
We might not be on the same land breathing the same air, but we can feel each other.
Since he did it, why can't you?

When you can't hold on, you must remember your idol.

Running on the track, your ears filled with hot air and unbearable panting.
Your friend is at the finishing line shouting the name of your idol, you must grit your teeth, you must dash over.
He is your destination, he is your strength.

Your secret crush has someone else in mind, and your shy love letter hasn't even been handed over.
You lock yourself up in your own room, looking at the posters of him who is still the same, choking up on your tears.
Nevermind, I still have you, you.

This world, perhaps exist betrayal, escapism, depression and all sorts of unhappiness.
As long as you open Twitter everyday, and start browsing through his updates.
You chuckle; sitting in front of the computer. Remember, that is the real you.

Your idol,
might have underwent all sorts of incidents, or maybe an accident, even the doctors said there is no hope.
Some of the members might have done something wrong, even some fans said they will not love them anymore.

Maybe time has diminished some of his popularity, even those who don't really follow him say he is not popular anymore.
Maybe his company never thought of putting in efforts in their promotions, with no intentions of further plans.
At that time, at that moment, how did he survive?

Fans commit mistakes, the idols, too. He has his own shortcomings, problems, or even have many people looking down on him.
Although he is not perfect, but you have to be thankful.

When you have your own love, you must remember your idol.
After entering adulthood, you finally have your own life.
He, too, might already have his own. Be it happy, be it blissful.

That past years of missing lessons to watch his concert,
that past years of squeezing in front to buy tickets,
that past years of pasting posters all over the wall,
that past years of scribbling his name all over the textbooks.

You might have been crazy before, 
but when you recall those years, you need to be proud, because that is one of a kind, something others don't have.

You protect him, forsaking your own limelight.
You devote your love towards him, no longer thinking about other guys, but also at the same time developing rationality and your own perception towards life.
Looking at him, from being a teen to adult, with stubby moustache growing out of his cheeks, with wrinkles on his face when he smiles.
Those are the traces of your love, which has undergone the vicissitudes of life, so thunderous.

So what if you are old, you need to be proud, because you experienced the purifying of time.
He stood for you, for you.
When he announces that he found his other half.
You cried, you teared. Because he has reached the shore, you are finally at ease and assured.
The position where you once dreamed of being at, someone has stood there in your place, for you.

So many years, you watched him fall and stand up on his own.
You finally feel relieved, that he has shoulders to lean upon.
Just that there is a little, just a little tinge of regret. Why, the one who is giving him happiness, is not you.

You have to remember your idol.
Those years, the person who has been giving you your happiness, rage, sorrow and joy..The one controlling your mind.
Even if he no longer appears on the screens of your TV, your handphone screen still, is filled with memories.
Even if his name no longer appears on the fashion magazines, your diary still, is filled with doodles and love.

Seeing how he shines on stage, dancing,
standing under the spotlight, talking to us and smiling with a microphone,
the way he stands on the steps, crying when he heard the fans singing along,
the way he receives the award and look at the cheering crowd,
and the first time, seeing him and forgetting about time.
No matter where time goes, in your heart, he is always, like that.

You must remember your idol.
You once boasted about his good, despite receiving disagreeing looks on the faces of the people around you.
Your blog is full of his news,
just to let people who understand you, know how blissful it is to like him.

You once quarrelled with others because of him.
You don't cry when people scold you, throw things at you, but your eyes turn red when someone is just badmouthing them.
On what basis, you ask, since they don't understand him, how dare they think they have the right to criticise them.
He is your life.
You hid under your blankets, crying, because of him. Having wild thoughts in the middle of the night,
how has he been, how was his injuries, what did he meant when he said that.
Tired, but after a short nap you wake up and continue to love him.
You are not afraid of anything, so long as he is there.

Some people in this world might be physically close to you, but can never understand why you like him.
You must tell them, the word "fortitude" is not something that can be taught by anyone.
And he, gave you this precious thing.

So, you must remember your idol.

Dear, since now we are still young.
You have to work hard, to become someone worthy of him,
to be able to meet him someday, and stand next to him deservingly.
You must, must tell him personally.
You must tell him that you are thankful that you didn't miss him, in the midst of billion of people.
Thank him for his companionship for the past few years, whether be it crying or laughing.
You must, deeply, with that choked up voice of yours, carefully, shout his name.
-- I used to, love you, that, that, that much.


[Even if time has passed, don't worry, the white-haired me will remember the black-haired you, while loving the white-haired you.]

by: 蓝爵Yoyo
trans: @exonyeoshidae

--
Though this letter may sound too extreme, I found it quite relatable as a fellow fan.
While waiting for our boys' comeback, let's take a short moment to relive our fangirl lives, and think about how we want it to continue. ^^

[TRANS] Chanyeol

The Chanyeol who is always spotted with red veins in his eyes.
The Chanyeol who still smiles happily nevertheless.

The Chanyeol who is afraid of the heat.
The Chanyeol who will sleep on the sofa in the living room and sweat all over during summer.
The Chanyeol who is afraid of the cold.
The Chanyeol who wears clothes so thick in the winter till he looks like a bear, and coughs occasionally.

The mischievous Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who smirks during snowfights with his bros and hides behind the railings after that.
The Chanyeol who makes fail snowballs which fall apart upon throwing.

The hardworking Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who picks up rubbish and throws it into the bin.
The happy Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who will go around leaving messages in other's Cyworld.
The hyperactive Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who will move his body around with weird facial expressions when listening to songs.
The quiet Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who will submerge himself into the contents of a book, and never utter a word.
The enthusiastic Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who claps everytime and cheers the loudest whenever the members speak up.

The kindhearted Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who kept on saying "It's okay" even when fans pushed him and caused him to knock against the door.
The thoughtful Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who quietly corrects the leader's starting pose before the music starts.
The polite Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who bows to both sunbaes and hoobaes, who smiles and nods his head to an old lady at the airport.

The blur Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who will make up his own dancesteps when he danced a wrong move.
The mature Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who is tired and panting but still waves to the fans after performing.
The too mature Chanyeol
The Chanyeol who was seen by fans limping after leaving the stage.
The selfless Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who initiates to help move the heavy boxes.
The ego Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who needs to check himself out upon seeing his reflection on the phone, window and even the mirrors on the sides of escalators.
The confident Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who will say with absolute confidence that he is the most handsome, but smile shyly after that.
The focused Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who will put in 100% into performing guitar or drums.

The childlike Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who raised a ferret and who will still show endless affection for dogs when he sees one.
The clumsy Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who can't speak accurate Chinese but still shouts his Chinese name in pride.

The cute Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who laughs and stomps his feet on programmes.
The soft Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who hurries over to help Kai when he is injured.
The bashful Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who has a light dimple on the left side of his cheek whenever he smiles.
The pure Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who is curious about everything, who tugs on Chen's sleeves when he wants to touch the trophy as well.

The strong Chanyeol.
The Chanyeol who has never been red-eyed till now, holding the trophy with a smile, with pride in his eyes, putting his thumbs up when staring into the camera.

Chanyeol often says, "Hi! I'm EXO-K's happy virus, Chanyeol."

Sometimes it's easy to think that Chanyeol is already very mature.
But if you think again, he is only a boy who just had his 20th birthday.

Chanyeol has dry eye symptom, so he often feels uncomfortable. But he has a pair of eyes that are clearer than any lake.

Chanyeol has a love for caps, so he has many of them, but actually the ones that he often wears are just that few.
He never changed his watch. He is a person who often reminisce about the past.

Chanyeol lacks a sense of security. He used to love to hold on to other's arms.
But the Chanyeol now no longer clings on to people, he has changed into a furry cap, as if it could provide him with comfort.

Chanyeol has a pure, childlike heart.
He likes to breath warm air onto the window while sitting in the car, then uses his finger to draw a heart.


Chanyeol has a small mole on the right side of his face. My dad says such people will have a lot of blessings in their life, leading a life that is safe and smooth.

Chanyeol usually signs with his eyes wide open, head down, maybe he wants to write down every stroke of his name with the whole of his heart.

Chanyeol always only express happiness and joy on his face. He won't allow people to know whether he is feeling down or angry.

Chanyeol is full of courage, but he is afraid of loneliness.

Chanyeol keep having the you-can-restrict-my-freedom-but-not-my-heart expression.



Chanyeol, is a really good person.


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